Single Pear - 2024 12 20

 

Acrylic ink on cardstock paper - 4" x 6"

I'm never quite sure how the day is going to turn out. I can't make a prediction or judgement based on how the morning unfolds.

I have gone from fighting for time to myself where I don't have to check in on Mom and socialize every 1/2 hour, to long periods of time where I'm not talking to anyone. Each morning, I start on my own and by 10 am I am out walking the dog thinking about who I might call to check in with. I don't want to presume any particular person wants to talk to me more than once a week, so I flip through my mental Contacts app and see if anyone has been out of touch. Many days I will keep myself to myself and do my voice exercises for singing while Adele leads me on her morning sniff walk.

Today I was inspired to take a picture of the livingroom with Adele sitting looking out the window. I sent it off to each of my three kids and they all got back to me. That felt good. It turned out my youngest son, who lives in Quebec, was available for a check in. We had a good laugh, talking about the vicissitudes of life: family life, married life, and creative life. I was able to gain insight into his life looking after his household and 1 year old baby, and also get a better perspective on my own life timeline. Figuring out my next right step.

This single pear has gotten it's second layer of inks - this time tinted with Prussian Blue, which turned the existing ink mix to a forest green. This little pear is sitting on the window sill. The window sill is a space of transition, it opens to the outside world, it also brings the outside world inside. What is the next step? Which way to go? To turn inward? Or to step out into the unknown?

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