Neighbour Crows - 2023 11 18
Graphite, watercolour paper
Everyday I am out walking with Adele, my rescue dog. Everyday we are walking there are crows in the neighbourhood doing their crow things.
I am entering my third year of family caregiving, looking after my 93 year old Mom.
Sometimes the light is just right and the crow is close enough for me to catch some quick pictures for drawing reference. Without the detail captured in the photo I wouldn't have anything to work with. I definitely do not have a photographic memory of these fleeting glimpses of crow life.
Mom moved home with me on her 91st birthday on November 1, 2021. She had been living in mental health group housing for forty years and was aging out of the system.
Back in my studio I play with positioning the crow figures and then I notice a story starts to tell itself from the expressions on their faces, the direction of their gaze, the position of their bodies. It is the story that my imagination conjures about the two figures in the two dimensional space of the drawing paper that I find fascinating. It is usually a story about something I am processing or sorting out in my own life.
The last time Mom moved home with me was in January or February, 1982. I had three children, my youngest was born in July, 1981. We had moved temporarily to Vancouver in the spring of 1981 when Mom's mental health precipitated a housing crisis.
This drawing has been rendered in 6 layers of graphite. The next step is to apply layers of pencil crayon colour. It is an endless mystery how the final drawing will turn out. It always feels like I am doing the drawing for the first time.
We tried to set Mom up on her own apartment, but she was unable to handle the loneliness and isolation. I realized she wasn't doing well when I visited her in her apartment and noticed that the shag carpet was all pressed in one direction. Mom had been pacing around and around in the same direction in the apartment, smoking and descending back into disabling paranoid schizophrenia.
I am grateful to my neighbour crows for keeping me company on these solitary walks.
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