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I heard a description of dysfunctional family relationships and how certain family members can turn into ghosts as a way to survive within this type of family system. I was thinking about feelings of invisibility, of not feeling known, of being assumed and expected to perform without feeling an intrinsic sense of belonging, of worthiness, of safety. I was thinking about compulsions to over-perform, to do more than everyone else just to feel worthy of standing on the starting line. I was thinking about the obsession of ruminating on other people's behaviours, the indignities, injustices, unfairness; the crazy-making incongruities of mis- or un-aligned words and deeds. There were two crows, sitting on a wire. They were sitting so close together. There were no other crows sitting nearby. They were clearly sitting together. They were in a relationship and responding to each other. Around them life unfolded as it does on a sunny afternoon in February. Sounds, movement, scents - caught t...